Moving forward

I've been a bit scarce around here lately. I think I may have lost my blogging mojo a bit. 

I have been pretty busy. A very active two year old, a part time job, selling Tupperware to fund a new business venture that I am busy planning and life in general. 

It's not that I haven't wanted to write. In fact I have written many posts. 

I just never published them. Deleted for no one to read. 

But I feel like it's time to get back into the swing of things. 

Finding the time has been one obstacle, but my family has had a lot to deal with recently.

Just over three months ago my brother in law was tragically killed in a car accident. 

It has been one of, if not the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with in my life. 

I have lost people I love in times gone by, but not under these kind of circumstances. 

Not at 32 years of age, leaving behind three beautiful and amazing daughters. 

The phone call plays over again and again in my head. It was a rainy Sunday night and I was just dishing up dinner when my Dad rang. " BJ I've got some terrible news". He told me of the accident and then paused and told me Ronald didn't make it. The next few days were a blur of people coming and going, phones ringing and too much take away food.

My family are very close so we all banded together and held each other up. 

I never imagined I'd be driving through Monday morning peak hour traffic to get to the coroner's office. I never thought I would be going through a phone book making sure all the appropriate people had been informed. I never wish those moments upon anyone.

Even now I'm not sure why I'm writing this post. Maybe it's to clear my head, maybe it will help me on and maybe it's part of my life journey.

I guess we all have different reasons for blogging. 

To stay in touch. To advertise. To show off. Most of all I think it's to share.

So that's me, it's not about moving on it's about moving forward, so I hope I can get back on the blogging train and continue to share, hopefully entertain and maybe even inspire.

Finally a few things just because...

Take photos, lots of them

Write things, notes cards messages

and tell you loved ones that you do in fact love them

because there may come a day that you can't tell them that and those photos, notes and cards will mean a whole lot more than the piece of paper they are written on